it's a weird world

Screw it all...
I AM GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shoot me now because I still don't have the money.
*shrugs*
Have to find a job soon now I guess.

OMG what have I done???
*flails*

ETA: I am actually calming down now and I feel okay with it. I really do. I'll just have to make it work in the next 5 1/2 months.

Thank you _bettina_ for the card. I got it today.. :)
*hugs*

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I want to go to Asylum.
But my money has been leaving me and I am not getting any new in at the moment.
I hate being a responsible adult.

But I am still seriously thinking about it.
I want to go and all that... I really do.
And the flights right now seem to be okay concerning the prices.

I'd only need a roommate I guess.

Meh, I want to see Jensen live and I want another Jensen autograph.
And well seeing the others (including Misha) would be worth it I guess.

I don't know what to do.... Help????

Happy Birthday incompletework2!!!
Have a great day.!!!

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Thank you ithilmenel for the card. I got it today and it's lovely. :)

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That said, I spent last night sleeping, yay me, and waking up with random fic ideas. This time I actually had a notebook next to my bed, so some of those ideas are still there.
I am not sure if I can actually write them but at least I have them somewhere. Uhm..

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I am actually thinking about watching "Wetten Dass..." because Lewis Hamilton is one of the guests and well the Pussycat Dolls are set to perform and I am actually curious if Thomas Gottschalk can hold back and not ask about their love life.
I don't know if I want to see that.... but it's kinda like a train wreck.

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I was kind of curious yesterday and clicked a link and was spoiled for SPN. Not much because it isn't much of a spoiler but more speculation. But I have to say I wouldn't really like it if they did it, because I see no sense in doing it.
None at all. Story told, things said and done. And seeing the comments I am not the only one not seeing sense.
But since itz's Kristen doing the fangirly thing again (and getting on the fans nerves) I have a hope that it won't happen the way she would like it too.
I sometimes have the feeling that her exclusive scoops are just not there. She is like a yellow press reporter, interpreting pictures and rumors the way she wants to.
It would be okay if she wouldn't praise them as spoilers and *the* inside view.

And yes I couldn't not watch thre sneak peak. At least I know I'll be loving those eps (for the most shallow reasons even). :)

As for tv shoes, I think I am in the mood to catch up with "Merlin" today.
Not that I don't have anything to do, I just don't feel like doing anything (haven't in a few days, which sucks because there are still so many things I need to get done).

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I shouldn't be this excited about one of my Christmas presents (the one I actually know about) but I have been waiting to get it for ages now.
I am in love with it already because I checked it out online and I think I need to find a name for it. It's blue and shiny and yeah...
I need to find a name.
And don't tell me I am crazy, I know that already.

hd_obsession thank you so much for the V-gift.
*huggles* :D

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I didn't sleep at all tonight and this morning I agreed to help my mum with stuff.
We just got home and I am ready to fall over. I am so dizzy it's not even funny anymore.
I am just going over my flist before I'll go to bed and sleep it off.
Man, I so need to stop the being-awake-for24-hours-stints.

I am not even able to do the advent stuff and things I promised people. I'll try to get those things done tomorrow and over the weekend (if i get my sleeping schedule under crontrol again).
Meeep.

So yeah, I am not really good with commenting today.

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Anyway, my brother is still an ass but my mum is helpful these days, so maybe I'll still be able to get things done before Christmas.
No idea if they will be on time though.
*sighs*

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I want to see "Dream Boy" because it's based on one of the books I am using for my thesis and I think it will beinteresting to see how they got it done.
The problem is, it's only in one theatre in the city here and I so don't want to go alone, but I can't imagine anyone wanting to go with me because I guess it's not all that interesting for people not interested in books/films like that (not to mention that you'd have to pay money to see it.).
The DVD will be put next months, but it's pretty expensive so I don't really know.
No idea what Ill do.

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As for watching things.
I still love "Leverage". I really do, so I'll keep on watching.
I finally managed to watch "Gossip Girl" and I am still like 4 eps behind with "Merlin" and I just can't bring myself to watch them.

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Random computer fact of the day: mine starts to smell when it gets hot.
So not cool. :(
It's only a year old.

/randomness.

hd_obsession, I got your card today! Thank you so much... :)

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I hate my internet right now.
It stops working at the most inconvenient times these days, mostly when I am trying to get things done.

Anyway, since I commented on hd_obsession's post.
A drabble meme.

Drabble it forward: Make a post inviting people to request drabbles in the fandoms you write; any number of commenters you can handle. But the catch is, once someone makes a request, they also have to post the meme, and drabble it forward.

Well, let's see if anyone even wants to... First 10 (or so).
The last call kind of went unanswered, not that I don't have anything to do... but drabbles I think I can manage.

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My sleeping schedule is all messed up again. I am dead tired all day but I never really manage to go to bed before 3am (of course I am already in bed but I never seem to be able to fall asleep).
So I don't really sleep at night or in the morning I watch news channels and morning shows, which sometimes might not be such a good idea. The things you think about when you can't sleep aren't always that pleasant, especially while watching the news these days.
Anyway, this morning I just watched a little of one of the morning shows and they had international news on.. and those news made me cry. It shows in what kind of an emotional state I am in when I am not sleeping.
Anway, it's this story about the Chilenian dog saving his injured mate from a busy highway that made me tear up.
Animals are so much more human than humans.

*glows with glee*

Yesterday in Eindhoven:

Pieter van den Hoogenband then had a farewell party, which featured a laser show and Ian Thorpe showing up as a special guest.

They are still slashy even if they are retired.
Not to mention that Randall almost cracked Aaron's WR at the very same Eindhoven meet.

In other news: I am freezing.

Happy Birthday bellasianna!!!
Hope you have a great day!

... at least today.
I actually managed to do some things that I have been pushing away for days now. I got some things done and am working on others.
Those are just minor things and are nowhere near me being any closer of sorting out my life or future but they are done and off the list.

Right now though I just want to hug blue_ant because she helped me out with some articles for my thesis and I actually have some kind of direction because of these articles.
I just kind of needed a little kick to get going again. Of course, I am nowhere near being done but it's baby steps and I am moving at least. I just wish I knew where I'd end up with it.

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When I am not freaking out over the thesis or my future or the money/job I still don't have I am freaking out over the stories I still have to write until Christmas.
I have no idea why I ever thought this was a good idea. The thing is I want to write. I really, really do.. I just don't have the motivation to start with some of the things.
At least I am about to be done with some small things.

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Anyway, I did have something to sigh about and ogle for some time today.
God, I kind of think the Friday 13th remake won't be as bad as people thought it would be. Because the trailer really kind of looks good.
If I didn't already want to see the movie I'd be tempted to do it after that trailer.
evil_witch666, I think we will have so much fun watching that.. :D

I think I want some icons of the trailer caps.
Because, let's be honest.. Jared looks hot there.

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Argh LJ... why deleting entries????

Anyway, I love the chache function in Semagic.
*nods*

YAY spnnewsletter!!!!





Idea from missyjack's journal
Banners by gwentastic and gigglingkat

Happy Birthday to ahania!!
I hope you have an awesome day!
*hugs*

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Was shopping with my grandparents today because they needed my opinion on stuff.
And I got something for myself as well....Take That!!!!. Well, not them in person but the new CD.

And so far I kind of really love the hidden track.
It's awesome.
*goes back to listen to the rest of the album*

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I blame this on hd_obsession, because I wasn't sure I wanted to do it but I guess I am doing it anyway.

( My wishlist )

Happy Birthday to splashpink!!
Hope you have a great day!
*sends sparkles*

And Happy Birthday to sunnychrisla as well!

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Oh fandom crossover.. SPN and The Cape.
*giggles*
( Casting spoiler )
*spoiler in comments* ;)

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I got my assignment for spn_j2_xmas and I think I can do that.
Now I just have to decide which pairing because my recipient likes the ones I can write but has one as a clear favourite.
Problem is I have never written a longer story with one of them. Only with the other pairing.
Hmmm.... But I think I actually might have an idea.

And yes, I am freaking out over the assigment because I actually really like the writing of my recipient and I feel like I can never even come close to that, especially if I should choose the favourite pairing.
So yeah.. uhm.
Meep?

I am actually quite okay with the assignment I just have to decide what to write and right now that's the only problem there.

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I have been eating PopTarts for breakfast today and I forgot how much I love them. I just wish they weren't so freaking expensive around here.
*goes back to earting apple cinnamon pop tarts*

First of all, it's SNOWING!!!!!

Secondly, they worked on the train tracks outside the whole bloddy night. Why do they think it is okay to honk the horn every five minutes at 3am???
I was dead tired.
Sleep then was way more important that SPN last night. I was way too tired to stay awake for it.

Anyway, this could have been better. I feel a little disappointed.
Not much but still. So, on to ( 4.10 notes and ramblings.. the usual.. and maybe an unsual pairing between the lines. ).

So January huh?
Blah.

I am dead tired and I don't know why.. Okay I know why, because this freaking swimming arena was over heated as usual. It makes me tired as hell.
Half naked men and women though do make me wake up a little more.
slippery_fish and me went to the first day of the World Cup today. Wheee swimming. Whee for Peter breaking a World Record. Wheee Randall (and why did Randall get flowers at the press con? And why kept Alain on touching Randall?).
Whee for Ous being there and being fast. Just whee in general I guess.
There could have been a little more people though.

So wearing maybe a little too much clothes in there and high heeled boots were not the smartest idea I had. My feet hurt. I had to take the boots off during the final session.
And I am still way too warm. I feel all over heated.

World Cup means I have been away the whole day and I didn't check my flist and I think I won't have time to do it thoroughly during the whole weekend.
Just scream at me or send me links if I miss anything important.. :)

Happy Birthday annapeace and arami!!!
I hope you had/have a great day. :)

I think this going to be more about the trailer than the episode itself... or well.. not really, it is all about the ep now... after having seen it a second time I can say a little more....
But there be light spoilers here, though I have only seen the trailer and I know nothing else about next week.
( Oh Jared, you keep on doing that and I might actually cry next time )

And please people, don't give Jared shit for a character he is playing. Especially not at conventions.
He is not Sam!!
It makes me cringe that it even has to be said because seriously, it's just a show after all.
*sighs*

Man, this got longer than I thought it would.

I haven't been good with comments lately. I am feeling slightly better, as in my throat isn't killing me anymore, my ear still hurts a little though.
I haven't been online much but worked a little on my thesis paper and a little on the prompts when I felt up to.

So I didn't really see what's going on, at least not much only what's been on my flist, and honestly I am a little tired of wanks and stuff. I was tired of stuff like that before and I seriously don't see the use in bashing and calling it humor.
Call me naive or stupid but I don't really get
I am unspoiled and I rather like it, keeps me a little saner and out of stupid discussions.

I hope I'll be even better this weekend. World Cup and I am kind of looking forward to it even though my swimming squee is lower than it used to be.
But Randall will be there and Peter. I am looking forward to see Ous (Go Trojans) and Therese. It's been a while.

Also this weekend, Chicago Con and J2. I am not sure how much of it I'll actually be able to follow, but I think I'll have a good chance keeping up with it.
In other news my Kitty loves ( Jared, too.. :) )

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I am in the process of cleaning up my harddrive and igt makes me a little nostalgic. I just deleted my old swimming pics folder, I have it all saved in different place but it's still strange to just delete it after all this time.
I deleted the Klete website folder, too. I am not doing much with it anymore and I need the space.

I was even thinking about giving up on APO, but then the space is still there and I can still manage to pay for the domain now, so I guess I will keep it for a while.
I don't know why I am not ready to say goodbye to it yet... It's been there for 6 years now and I think I still feel connected to it.

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People are using their fireplaces around here now. It's cold enough for it.
So every time I open my window it smells like cold air mixed with smoked and burned wood. Sometimes I like it, sometimes it's too much.
And it reminds me that the year is about to end.

Where did this year go?

I know you are all tired of reading about me being sick so let's just say this has been brewing for some days.
I apparently wasn't all back from the bout of the flu and my mum brought something home from the hospital to which she is already immune but I am not.
So yeah, it's not the flu but my throat is killing me and one side is swollen, my ear hurts and it is wet and I am dizzy most of the time. I have spells of ciold sweat and a stuffed nose as well.
There are breaks in it and I feel good and my mum got me Dolo-Dobendan yesterday, so it helps.
The dizziness though it worse than it was yesterday.

And I had to cancel a movie date which makes me really sad because I wanted to go and if I was feeling just a little better I would. :(
I am sorry mata090680, I really wanted to meet up again and see that film.

I just hope I will be okay again this coming weekend. World Cup and I so don't feel like sitting in an overly warm hall, watching half naked men and feeling like shit.
Meep. :(

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I dreamed about my bike and that I found it lying in the bushes near the train station and it was whole and working.
I guess being sick and sleeping the whole day makes the dreams simple and easy to understand.

Coming home yesterday from Claudia's (and I really think I wouldn't have survived the day without her teas and her couch to lie down on *hug*) I saw several other bikes lying around the bike station, unchained and unlocked, so I guess someone has figured out that this place might be ideal to steal stuff. No idea what they would need old bikes for but I guess it's for selling them as resources (like strealing copper and steal and so on).. because apparently the new bikes were left alone.
Assholes. :(

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Okay, so why does "Friday 13th" have a release date around here but "My Bloody Valentine 3-D" isn't even mentioned in the data base?
I want to see both of them. *pouts*

SPN season 2 on TV later tonight and I think I am unwell enough to not care about the dubbing.
Or I'll just take out my DVDs and watch those two eps the way I like it.


ETA: I just did not totally awwwed at Robbie Williams taking Gary Barlow in his arms. Awwwwwww.. :)
Gary's face and Robbie's smile.. cute.
Can't wait for the new Take That single and CD.. and really Gary seems to love Robbie's new stuff, so I am curious about that as well.

Heh, me and my plans. I did actually sleep right through and didn't get up for SPN. Watched it now and I think I can live with that.

( Some things about 4.08 )

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In other news, LJ kind of pissed of people again with not announcing changes properly.
Well, I have been using the new profile layout a while now and I got used to it pretty fast,. There are things in it that I don't like, but the things have been there before as well.
Like saying when you updated the last time. It was there, you just had to click to see it, now it is on display.
I wouldn't call it ugly and cry over it but yeah I can see why it isn't liked much.

Happy Birthday nairie!
Hope you had(have a great day! :D


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Oh God, I am dead. Everything hurts and I think I am about to fall over.
I was shopping with my mum. The whole day!
Well, okay from 11am onwards until about two hours ago.
Then I went to clean up my room, rearrange things and use the new stuff I got from IKEA.
My room looks cleaner, bigger and more organised than it has in ages. I am happy with it.

So I think I'll go to bed early and get up for SPN later. I dn't know yet but I think I'll do it this way.
Before I got to bed though I'll take a long hot bath and watch CSI, sure way to get some sleep.

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And is LJ eating icons again?
I see a totally different one on Semagic then on the userpic page on LJ.
Weird.

So I admit I got caught up in the electorial coverage.
I wanted to go to bed and sleep but my mum was still awake, on the phone and she was kind of loud with the doors, so I was still awake around 2am and just thought I'd look into the coverage to get an overview and then go to bed.
Yeah, right. I think I slept a little in between but I was awake enough to see Obama's speech and then get a call from my cousin.
I didn't expect him to call. He sent a text first and asked if I was awake though. I hadn't spoken to him in a while and he was close to Times Square and it was loud. Really loud.

I know how my family voted and I guess in this case it's nice to see that votes do count.
It was interesting to zap between the different channels and the different ways of coverage. I liked that the ZDF was invited to work from within the American Embassy, it worked quite well.

I just wish the Prop 8 votes would have been anything but what they are. WTF?

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I think I'll take a little nap now and will go shopping with my mum later. We need food and I need to get more tea (because my throat is burning *hides*) and I maybe need cookies.

I have a posting date for the challenge story. Yay. :)
I'll go over it again and maybe change some minor things but the main core will stay as it is and I am actually strating to like it

I still don't really know what to do about the costume situation and I only have like 3 1/2 hours left to decide what to wear.
I hate it when plans are smashed in the last minute and I don't have the chance to make changes anymore. I really hate it.

Bah.

Yes, I was bored so here are some memes:
Icon meme: xo_disaster_ox wanted to know about ( these icons )


Another meme snagged from xo_disaster_ox:
( Movie meme )